The trifecta of fuckery

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The trifecta of fuckery: 2022 in a Venn diagram that may or may not look like balls and I don’t care.

Hi friends of Margot in 2022

You may know me through work, or through parenting, or from long before. Or from some combination. Or we may not have met yet.

We’re all still living and breathing and hoping to connect more deeply with one another. (At least, that’s what I’m doing.)

I arrive here in July 2022 in quite a moment. It’s a horrible and vulnerable moment. It’s a moment of huge growth, deep transformation, and supreme mental fuckery.

It’s a liminal moment. (A word taught by a dear server at Southie in Oakland.)

Liminal means: In between.

And in this moment, I’m in between many things. The main 3 are:

  1. Divorcing husband of 20 years.
  2. My mom has Alzheimer’s, is poor, and I’m her primary caregiver.
  3. Closing my small business and looking for a new job.

All of these are super sensitive. I want to cry about each, and do, pretty much all of the time.

But. And.

I’m waking up every day in the center of this storm. I wake up in a place I want to be, for now. I wake up alone, or with a kid, as I want to, for now. I’m taking care of my mom, for now, and will continue as best I’m able.

And I’m going to write about these things for myself. Because as Joan Didion said:

I write entirely to find out what I’m thinking, what I’m looking at, what I see, and what it means. What I want and what I fear.

Joan Didion

Thanks for being here. Wherever the space between us is, that’s where I want to be too.

With love,

Margot

About Post Author

Margot

I wrote my first novel "Richland" in cafés in San Francisco’s Mission District, after working during the day as a producer at design firms. I graduated with honors from U.C. Berkeley, with a degree in Political Science, and lived in San Francisco for more than 14 years. The siren song of the East Bay lured us after our son Alejandro was born. We're now adjusting to life in the weirdly idyllic neighborhood of Rockridge, Oakland.
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